PATTERNS OF UP AND DOWN
Over the past several months, I've been painting in my studio and contemplating the act of being versus the act of doing. "To be" is to have a conscious existence whereas "to do" is the act of performing. In other words, getting up and lying down is something that we all do in our day-to-day, and being up and being down is inside the emotional daily pattern of our lifestyle. These actions have been internalized then externalized through Patterns of Up and Down, and each painting can be seen as a part of me. I like to look at these pieces individually as daily entries of my aesthetic-journal.
I recently visited the AGO to see Mitchell/Riopelle: Nothing in Moderation. I was inspired by one particular work by Joan Mitchell where she wanted to convey the feeling of a dying sunflower. Like this flower, my painting is mutually linked to life's ups and downs, and so too are my titles; they are equally a part of me as the visual work itself. From moments where my acupuncturist said Eating Flowers is Good For Eyesight (particularly chrysanthemums) and realizing how paintingUpside Down is a Whole New Way of Seeing, I am conveying my inner world and sharing my reality through abstracted forms.
Toronto was affected by the longest winter which got us all down. I walked to my studio in the April ice storm thinking about Mitchell's way of seeing and along these lines I painted Late Spring Feels Like Being Buried Alive. She changed the way I interpret light, colour, and emotions. Mitchell said “I paint from remembered landscapes that I carry with me – and remembered feelings of them, which of course become transformed. I could certainly never mirror nature. I would more like to paint what it leaves with me." Reading this was comforting. I hope that my interpretation of nature affects my viewers though their own unconscious realities